10 - hungry for more

Naar aanleiding van een writing op fetlife, kreeg ik onderstaand gedicht. 

slavery is not about suffering . . .  
. . . slavery is about service.          
slavery is not about humiliation . . .
. . . slavery is about humility.        
slavery is not about pain . . .           

. . . slavery is about being present.

slavery is not about being used . . .
. . . slavery is about being of use.
slavery is not about control . . .
. . . slavery is about letting go.  
slavery is not about what is done to you . . .
. . . slavery is about what you do for others.
slavery is not about abuse . . .
. . . slavery is about acceptance.
slavery is not about proving anything . . .
. . . slavery is about being real.
slavery is not about contempt . . .
. . . slavery is about respect.
slavery is not about how you look . . .
. . . slavery is about how much you care.
slavery is not about denying yourself . . .
. . . slavery is about being open.
slavery is not about bondage . . .
. . . slavery is about freeing your spirit.
slavery is not about punishment . . .
. . . slavery is about discipline.
slavery is not about being unable to escape . . .
. . . slavery is about being committed.
slavery is not about submission . . .
. . . slavery is about obedience.
slavery is not about fear . . .
. . . slavery is about trust.
slavery is not about sex . . .
. . . slavery is about love.
slavery is not about pleasure . . .
. . . slavery is about happiness.

Of ik lijd? Lijden is relatief. Ik wil dienen. Ik vraag het woordelijk. 

Met plezier geef ik mijn lichaam en geest, hongerig. Onvoldoende gevoed. 

Hij houdt ervan de controle te hebben. Ik laat het Hem graag toe. Die controle echter drijft me soms tot rebelering. De controle maakt me hongerig. Honger die niet voldaan wordt. 

Hij doet veel voor mij, op zijn manier. Ik doe op mijn manier. Onvoldoende.

Ik ben ik, vastgeroeste ankerpunten kunnen niet veranderd worden.